I really screwed up today, and as much as I do not want to be honest about what happened, I will. I went to the Olive Garden today and knew that it was NOT the place to stay LC but deep inside I guess I had pre-meditated it and wanted to give up. I started taking little nibbles off of the breadsticks and before I knew it I lost myself in the breadstick basket! So, I figured I already blew it and ordered angel hair pasta with alfredo sauce. In the middle of eating it, I got sooooo sick! I threw up all over the table. (the waiter was PISSED) I feel like someone poisoned me. I am going to bed and gonna start fresh in the morning, I never want to feel this way again.

I can't believe after 10 weeks of faithfulness,I cheated. I feel awful, both physically and emotionally. Has anyone else ever messed up and got back on track the next day? I hope this does not doom me.

I refuse to start smoking again so I guess it could have been worse. I could have started smoking again and that would have been much harder for me to get back under control. I also hope you all do not think I am weak because I am really trying to be strong right now. I will take diet pills the next few days til I get back in ketosis again. Whatever it takes.

I went to the store tonight and bought every Atkin's book on the shelf AS PUNISHMENT! I already have them but I made myself buy them again so I would take away some of my spending money for the week. So everytime I want to buy something it will remind me why I haven't any extra money left.