Thanks for all the welcomes, and congrats.
And at last, someone has heard of my program, LOL!
Well, I weighed in last night, and I am up a half pound..
As I mentioned in my journal, there are a few reasons: going out to dinner on Saturday - although I took care of the portions, and watched carefully, I cannot control the sauces/salts that they may have put on my food. I cannot have salt on my diet, and usually only have 300 mg a day or less, and the average person has 2000-4000 mg a day (even though they should have less than 2000 mg,
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And, I work out (cardio & strength training) and on the same day, cleaned the whole house top to bottom, and cariied our heavy vaccuum up and down the stairs while I vaccuumed them. I tore some muscles, and I have been told that doing that causes retention, but it still doesn't change how discouraged I get when I see the #'s stay the same, or creep up a little.
I was 243.5 on the 30th, and can't seem top stop obsessing that I was lower then, and beating myself up about it now.
I know different, so WTH?? This sucks, having an eating disorder, and having my deceased abusive father in my head telling me I am worthless and should just give up and stuff myself until I show the world that it's true...
Yikes, I didn't know that I felt that bad until I typed it all out... Sorry for the downer., guys.
I guess that's why I'm here. The girls at Herbal Magic wouldn't understand this, and maybe think I was crazy if I said that to them. I hope you guys don't. Sorry again.
Diana