Sun, Mar-21-10, 16:35
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Senior Member
Posts: 229
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Plan: Atkins
Stats: 135/112/105
BF:
Progress: 77%
Location: UK
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Hey Littleme,
Can I first just say sorry to hear you're suffering with an ED. I have had an ED for 4 years now and at one point I was exactly in your situation. I was 11 1/2 stone when I went on Atkins around the age of 17 and quickly dropped down to 6 stone in a matter of 9 months following Atkins. My body was extremely emaciated and at the time I was also posting on here for advice as even touching sugar free jello (as you've mentioned) made me panic and freak out. I was threatened that if I didn't sort my act out I'd be taken into an ED hospital and be fed the food they gave me. At the time I was still following atkins and very content with what I was eating, but I had to change that otherwise I would continue to lose weight. I was very strict with myself and so the weight loss didn't seem to be stopping.
So around christmas time that year I slowly but surely changed from low carb to moderate carbs. First it was just allowing myself sugar free jello, and some nuts. I then added in unallowed Atkins food, some breaded things, and maybe a bowl of cereal some days. Everyday was a panic and struggle in my head and I thank my mum for helping me get through it and constantly reassuring me that I wasn't putting on weight. And the odd thing was, I wasn't. My body was so malnourished that whatever I ate wasn't putting weight on, it was rebuilding my insides and the muscles that I'd wasted away. I began eating normal foods, but sensible options and everything was absolutely fine when I realised that despite the fact I'd put on a few pounds, it'd been in muscle mass since my clothes were fitting exactly the same. I fit in some exercise most days (but not excessive or obsessively) and I just maintained.
Unfortunately I did go through a rough patch in my life where I started to comfort eat and put some weight back on. Like I said, I do still have an eating disorder and until recently had been just starving myself to bring my weight down. I know damn well this isn't the right thing to do and that's why I'm back here today, to lose weight the right way and not take it too far this time.
I guess my whole point is, speaking from experience, that I'd been exactly where you are and know how you're feeling. And it's hard to allow yourself things that you've been restricting all this time. If you don't want to come off Atkins like your doctor advises, then just allow yourself the low carb treats and other flavoursome foods included in this WOE. I think if you relax a little and see that you don't gain weight, that those impulses to binge won't be there anymore, because you'll already be satisfied with the low carb foods you're eating.
I hope this helps in some way.
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