Tue, Jan-23-07, 16:54
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New Member
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Plan: not sure
Stats: 145/145/125
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Like many others, I was glad to have found this site.
I'm 19 years old now, and I started getting a small dark patch on my abdomen freshmen year in high school. I didn't think too much about it, and I have always had a huge sweet tooth. I wish I had warning because I really believe I could have prevented it from spreading. Eventually throughout high school it spread to under my armpits, my thighs, and even further out on my stomach. I always lied and said I didn't enjoy going to dances, but the truth was that I was afraid to wear a prom dress. Being a shy person in general, and never really having had good self-esteem, this was definitely painful for me to realize that I could never wear a swimsuit again, a tanktop, or a sleeveless dress. I ran in my school track and cross country team, and I hated wearing the uniform on meet days because I'd be so afraid to raise my arms. I also hate that I can't enjoy good food, and i always cave into desserts and potato products and... carbs ><
I feel very depressed often and I also feel that I cannot tell anyone about it. I don't have health insurance and I'm afraid to get myself checked out because I'm horrifically embarrassed. I'm not overweight, but I have gained about 20 lbs over the last two years. I've had irregular periods since I first got them and my dad has diabetes. I don't know what to do because I could possibly have PCOS. life sucks. i just want to be normal. blahblahblah.
uhm...well anyways. it was good to get that off my chest.
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