Hi Freydis-
Since I'm a nurse, I may have a slightly different slant on this, but believe me, I understand your anger and frustration. The public tends to idealize doctors, to think of them as somehow saintly, when in fact they are all too human. Most do the best they can, and that can be very good indeed. Others are so pressurred by the size of their practices and the stress put upon them, that unfortunately, substandard care may be given. Some keep up with the latest medical breakthroughs, or at least recognize the limitations of their own knowledge and training, but some do not.
Some of the same consumer rules that we go by in shopping for a car also apply to selecting a doctor. Some out there are excellent; some are not. It is up to us, as consumers, to weed out the "lemons". And the only way to do that, is, like Karen says, through education. That is not only our right; it is also our responsibility.If you find out everything you can about your specific condition, then you can ask intelligent questions, and be an "informed consumer" when you visit your doctor. There is more safety in that position, than in blind trust.
I worked for a wonderful, sensitive and intelligent physician for eight years. Whenever I would voice some personal minor medical complaint, and ask him what to do, he would laugh and say, "Stay away from doctors, Kat- they'll kill you!"
While I am in no way intending to deny the pain and anger that you feel, I think you need to learn from it, but then put it behind you. For me, all the angers and resentments that I hang onto only hold me back and divert me from my main goal. I have this Cognitive Therapy/Dr Phil/Dr Laura slant on things, which is not always popular in this forum. I believe it is good, and necessary, to get the feelings out, examine them and their origin, discuss them, vent about them....but then..........let them go. Feelings are only feelings, and I refuse to let them rule my life, when I have a perfectly good mind to do that!
Hugs,
Kat