Wed, Oct-30-02, 20:18
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Senior Member
Posts: 467
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Plan: yo-yo
Stats: 230/190/175
BF:no clue
Progress: 73%
Location: Richmond VA
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Depression 3
LOL. Can't shut me up tonight!
Lest you think that smiling face over there knows nothing about depression, you should know that the first time I tried suicide was at the tender age of 14. Depression I know. My diet at that time consisted of Ho-Hos, Dr. Pepper, and ice cream sandwiches (5 for lunch every day). I never exercised or played sports. I truly believe that if had been eating low-carb and exercising, I would never have gotten to the point of swallowing two bottles of pills.
Carbs, like cigs, like booze, like tv, is for me an addiction. In other words, I cannot think that one day I can start eating ice cream again, or pasta or potatoes. It is over. Period. Done. Buh-bye!
Hello protein and fat and a bit of carb. That is how I live from now on. Playing with fake sweets or chemical sweeteners I find as dangerous as drinking non-alcoholic beer, or bumming "just one" smoke from a friend, or buying a TV for my guests. Addictions need firm rejections. It has worked with TV, cigs, booze and now carbs.
My way is not everyone's way. We must all find a way that works for us. But if you are "cheating" then your way is not working and you need to find another way.
Regardless, never give up hope. As I lay in my bed with two bottles of pills in me, a voice kept saying, Mark, you'll be on your own in 4 years, and then you can live as you choose. My hope was revived, I got up and had to beg my mother to take me to the hospital (she sent me back to bed! LOL...oh mother dearest!)
But I'm now 45 and relatively successful for an ADDer who was not diagnosed till I was 39, and who was addicted to so many things.
Hope. Do not give up Hope.
You are a unique expression of creation...fight for your place at the table of Joy.
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