Wed, Sep-11-02, 12:22
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New Member
Posts: 19
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Plan: Atkins/My own
Stats: 140/140/110
BF:
Progress: 0%
Location: Dallas
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[QUOTE]Originally posted by Homegirl
[B]With a name like hotpatoody, I just had to stop in and see what's what.
haha!!! I love using that term, as in "Boy, HE'S a hot patoody...", and it drives my kids insane with embarassment because they think it's so geeky.
Thank you for the encouragement. I am so ashamed to have to report that I am having a heck of a time committing to what I know I need (and want) to do. I really messed up a few days ago eating pizza, and I don't mean just one little slice. I really don't understand myself anymore as far as taking care of appearance, because I was just SO HORRIBLY VAIN about my looks when I was in my 20s and 30s, and now I feel like such an old, fat, slob, and I feel like I'll never ever get out of this rut. I have always been a strong, active person until just a few years ago, and now it's like I just don't give a flip...that is, until I catch a glimpse of myself au naturel in the mirror and I want to be sick. I just don't understand where this negative attitude has come from, but I am tired of it and tired of defeating myself. I think if I could stop thinking of myself as "old", which I do, then I could get on with it. It's like I have this nasty message playing in my head that goes: Well, you're old now so who cares what you look like? It is so illogical, but I am having a hard time getting around it.
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