I came home yesterday to a husband who promised to have dinner ready and didn't then blamed it on me!!
I was already not a very happy person, but I'm tired of getting blamed for other people's lack of a brain. I know I'm going to look back at this post and not believe what I'm saying, but man, I told him off and didn't regret it! Then it's, "I worked hard all day (as if I sat around on my lazy a--) in the cold and came home happy, and now the day is ruined (read- my fault)" Arrrggghhh! Sorry, just need to scream! Then he starts asking me about my vitamins, saying he thinks it makes people sick (where in the world does he get this?) and I had to come out with my diet. Anyway, in a nutshell, he doesn't believe in it and is against it, but I told him I'm doing it anyway and tried to explain the scientific reasons and he came up with his end-of-discussion "I guess I am just from the old school and you don't understand me." After that, I could be telling him anything, he wouldn't listen. All of this in front of the kids, who have seen me losing weight and feeling much happier and energetic.
Oh!! I just makes me want to, well I wish I was still in martial arts class, I'd be able to get rid of some of this excess anger.
So now, I have to PROVE that this diet works instead of just going along and losing for myself. I get to look forward to the scrutiny and criticism the next several months. So, if you don't mind, instead of going off and eating a bag of chips (that's what I comforted myself with before) I'd like to come here and rant a little and stay on target. I stayed on my diet yesterday, and will continue because I know it is right, but the pressure is going to get intense here. I'm not kidding, I've gone through it before. At least this time I'll actually be losing weight and won't give up and prove myself wrong! By the way, he asked me if he was wrong to think that 80% of daily calories should be carbs, AAAAHHHH! I told him goodness no, and he just looked at me like "poor, deluded soul."
OK, that's enough pity party. I have my daughter's birthday party to host for kids and then the relatives party on Sunday. She turned 10 on this past Wednesday.
She told me this morning that I'm a lot skinnier and could she go on this diet so she won't get sick when she's older. Bless her heart, I told her that she didn't need a diet, but if she wanted to make smart choices, she could. Cheese or nuts or berries instead of those snack brownies and other junk food I have lying around. She was quite happy! She doesn't think she's overweight, she just knows Diabetes and heart disease run in our family. And of course the other kids want to do it too! We'll just have to keep a low profile around dad.
I lost another pound so that's 2 lbs. total this week. I'm 195, halfway through my 10 lb. increment. YAY!
Tama-we graduated at the same time! My 10 year reunion is this November (don't ask me why the harebrained date, it Thanksgiving weekend!)
Anyway, I probably won't be going. But I'd like to be thin again if I decide at the last minute to go. I don't want to look like I let myself go either! I put myself on many strict diets to gain this weight!!
It wasn't me letting myself go, and I'm sure that wasn't your problem either! It'll be nice to be back in my thin clothes.
Anyway, I'm signing off, I have a pinata to decorate and a house to clean. See you all later!
Amber
P.S. Thanks for letting me rant and rave, I feel better.