Hey Bec~
Wow. Sorry to hear of your stuggle. On some levels, I can relate, but not to the extent that you have detailed. You are so brave for taking the adventure to figure out what is right for you...in a healthy and managable way. You will find many ED members on this forum who can help you with the specific struggles you go through.
3 years is really a long time, and you have lost quite a bit. Way to go.
When you say ccl, do you mean effective carb count? (ecc) I'm sorry but for some reason, I thought you were just starting...hummmmm
Your sugar addiction is something I can totally relate to. It was harder to quit sugar than it was a 20 year smokin' habit. go figure. (and ya don't see everyone sueing the sugar industry for making their products, now do ya?
) I'm o.k. with sugar substitutes, but definently need to cut back a bit. It's funny you mention this because just today, I started using stevia again instead of splenda. For some reason, it dosen't make me want more sugar like things.
re: the oil....I have a really hard time eating in the morning. The coconut oil has no flavor so in the coffee it goes. Gives me some calories w/o having to eat food. Also, it is supposed to raise the old metabolism, so I have a tbl in the am and one a 1/2 hour before lifting. We'll see how it goes. Now as for flax seed oil.. I had a really hard time with the aftertaste. I can handle the Udo's but the flax was tooooooo much. kudos to you!
did i cover it all? oh,....START A JOURNAL!!!
Peace to you!
Brenda