Hi all

My name is Dee, I'm new to this site and was told to join the TDC. Thanks to the 2 people who replied to my first posting

I am 31 and I weigh 335lbs. I need to get rid of 195lbs to reach my goal weight of 140lbs.

I was up for the gastric surgery and messed it up and got cancelled because I didn't lose the addtional 30lbs my surgeon required me to lose. So here I am now with almost 40pounds to lose. I've been yoyo --ing for a while. My highest weight was 358. I need all kinds of advice and encouragement. I want to make a commimment and I will but I'm scared. Scared of letting myself down for the upteenth time. I have a problem with completing goals. I shoudn't say that, but it's true. I need to stick to my goals. So here I am still fat and struggling to lose weight. But I am determined to do this. One good thing I can say about myself is that I have fallen several times but I keep getting back up. And I will not stop trying to save my own life. This fat issue has almost killed me. I have pseudo-tumor-cerebia from being over weight. I'm alright now but I have a shunt in my brain and I lost the vision in my left eye because of it. All of this and I still haven't lost the weight, but I will. My biggest dream is to ride a roller coaster with my kids. As of right now I can't fit in the seats...I've been through that humiliation. I would also like to run again. I remeber as a teenager I would sprint up the steps 3 or 4 at a time. I also love to dance but can't seem to break it down like I could 200 pounds ago LOL My knees threaten to go out on me LOL But through it all I'm still here and I'm glad to find a community who understands where I'm coming from. Hey are there any TDCers here from Sacramento California? Stay in touch