I SOOOOO relate to your panic! I also have an eating disorder (combined anorexia/bulemia - what a combo ). After rehab and a LOT of therapy, I have come to realize that one thing that is common among those of us with Eating Disorders is that we are perfectionists and we make mountains out of molehills when it comes to JUDGING ourselves.

I just wanted to send you a hug. I am a newcomer, so I am sure others have better practical advice, but I did want to share some of my relevant experience with you.

Take care,

Laura