Hiya
I've been through a bit of a rough patch of late and Denise Robertson (UK TV counsellor) says I'm depressed.
I've been battling the blues a lot - mainly over the last 9 months, when my Dad stopped speaking to me over the venue of my wedding (He's speaking to me now.). On the heels of that came the death of my grandmother (The only grandparent I've known.), then Christmas, then all the stuff for my wedding and all through this I was being sexually harrassed and victimised in my workplace. Then I travelled the 6000-odd miles to Las Vegas to get married, then all the way back again.
I just completed a short course with some of my heroes (Lee Simpson and Phelim McDermott - directors of 'Shockheaded Peter' amongst other things) and during one of the sessions I discovered that Phelim feels the same way as me (Eg - always wanting more, but not knowing exactly what it is that you want.). This made me feel that there isn't any sort of light at the end of the tunnel for how I feel, that there's no redemption for the suffering, if you will. I was miserable for three days solid after that but now I feel like normal again.
The miserable feeling will come back - it's been visiting like Churchill's Black Dog since I was 19 but never considered myself as being depressed before.
Before I go to visit my doctor about this (I am also in counselling, btw) I wanted to ask some experts about this - DO YOU THINK I COULD BE DEPRESSED? I know there's different degrees and different types of depression. My moods are all-encompassing, don't make me want to kill myself, do disturb my sleep and eating habits, invoke paranoia but then I'm paranoid anyway (Purely due to my weight.).
Any help or comments would be great
Becks x x x