For whatever reason, I am up 3 pounds this week. I feel like an ~ss for being upset by this, because I am wearing a skirt I haven't been able to wear in about 3 years. I don't understand why I have gained, but I am dealing with it. I know I am upset and can't seem to let it go because I had a nightmare about it last night.

I also just ruined a cheesecake that I was making for my husband tonight. He wanted a treat for tonight, while we were decorating the tree. I had gathered all the ingredients (or so I thought). I had to make a special run to the store to buy Sugar Twin, since the recipe calls for both Sugar Twin and Splenda, and I only had Splenda, and I wanted to follow the recipe to the letter.

The store only had the packets, so that is what I used. I measured out 5 tbsp like the recipe requested (12 packets per tbsp, meaning I tore open 60 little packets). I began to suspect that something was wrong when I licked my fingers, and I just checked the Sugar Twin website, where they state not to use the packets for cooking.

I am mostly bitter about the wasted time (ok, and wasted money). It took me two hours to mix the damned cake, and blend 2 1/2 pounds (2 1/2 pounds!) of cream cheese in the food processor. I thought I had a pretty good processor, but all the ingredients wouldn't fit. I had to mix everything in batches. So after all that time and effort to realize I made a rooky mistake has got me pretty bitter.

After all this, paying $40 to Atkins Nutritionals to have them ship us a cheesecake doesn't sound so unreasonable.

~~Amaara