Tonya,
I am so sorry to hear that you are going through so much pain. Please know that there are many people on this board that can identify with your story and are crying right along with you.
Please take a day or two, and focus on only yourself, allow yourself to feel the pain, and begin the grieving process. I'm sure that you feel a loss.
Having said that, please consider that your boyfriend is basing his actions and opinions on what is OUTSIDE, and not what's on the inside. Perhaps, he is not DESERVING of YOUR companionship. You deserve to be LOVED for who you are, and not what size you wear.
You sound like such a sweet and special lady. I know it's hard - but please remember that there are people out there who will love and cherish you for who you really are, not what size you wear.
Congratulations for reaching out to the good people on this board, and if you choose to start the LC WOL, I'm sure that you will find much comfort and su pport here.
Please do take care of yourself, and remember that YOU are
worth loving . Please DON'T hang your entire self worth up on the opinion of any man.
True love - that is mutual - doesn't hurt.
-Beth