Thu, Sep-30-10, 07:40
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Senior Member
Posts: 197
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Plan: Protein Power
Stats: 326/275/150
BF:
Progress: 22%
Location: Washington state
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You know what I did? I embraced my fatness. I joined a fat singles group, a fat social group, bought great clothes and makeup and started treated myself well. I don't care if people make fun of me, because I am going to live my life, not hide. I found a place where I could ride horses on the beach, I swim, I do remodeling on my house, I am respected at work. I treat myself the way I want to be treated. I, too, suffered a lot as a child, but that was years ago. I forgave myself for accepting others' abuse. I don't accept abuse now. I am happier than I have been in a long time and I am losing weight.
The point is: you deserve a life too. I hope you can get to the point where you can do the things that make your life worthwhile, and not beat yourself up about it. It is ok to feel upset at those people, they are bullies. There is nothing wrong with you leaving if you weren't comfortable. Is there another way to learn? Any other classes? If the class isn't for you, it isn't. It doesn't make you wrong, it is just wrong for you. I think large people have Stockholm Syndrome when it comes to bullies. We say, yes, you're right, I do eat too much; have no willpower' am lazy etc... I hope you can find your peace, and classes that fit you. You did nothing wrong.
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