Hey everyone
Haven't posted in a while ...lol but I gotta have surgery tuesday..again cause I have a stupid tumor growing in my neck.
And last time I had surgery, when I had my thyroid removed.. My throat hurt for like 3 days because of whatever tube they stuck down it and all I ate was icecream and Mcdonald's shakes. So I'm prolly gonna do that again if the surgery even works.
Last time they wouldn't even let me leave the hospital untill I ate some of the crappy blah tasting, low fat food cause my calcium levels were low er something. I was eating their icecream though, only thing that didn't suck.
And ya I'm scared I'm gonna die from anestiesa er something so I've been eating carbs, and not eating food at all. Sucks too cause I was just doing real good and lost 3 real lbs (meaning not just water lol) and gained em back already. But I don't really care bout that =/ and I'm gonna have another ugly scar on my neck. (I don't heal very well, I had surgery 2yrs ago and it looks like someone drew on me with a red pen) And I dunno something about being knocked out, cut open..eck I'm scared I won't wake up or ummm my heart will stop..lol That stuff freaks me out for some reason. One of the reasons I don't even want my dog nuetered yet..Ain't even 1yrs old.
And even though I have the same surgeon and he swears I can't die from this.. But he hasn't cut me open yet and dosen't know yet if he can even get it out... My other dog just died cause of a tumor.. bleeding in his stomach..They did ERsurgery even though they had doubts, and it was worse then the xray showed..So ya I have a hella good reason to be scared.
Sorry I rant when I'm nervous..lol
but good luck to the rest of ya, I hope I can get back on track asap. Atleast I'll have an IV and don't have to drink. I wish I could buy one of them.