It is so helpful to have support here. I am feeling really horrible - physically, mentally, emotionally...I know it has SO much to do with all of the sugar and refined carbs I've got in my system right now. I too have been a victim of the roller coaster effect. I can't even recall when I took the first bite of sugar - it seemed so harmless at the time, to be sure. But it has turned into a few all out sugar binges over the last few months. And the pounds have been piling on.

I feel so beat down. Like I just don't have it in me to do one more diet. I do know that I don't have any clarity with my system so bogged down with sugar. I am really looking forward to the relief. I guess I have had real trouble with accepting that I need to eat this way for a lifetime. Like I will be missing out on something if I don't have dessert at a party or a drink on a date or cake at my wedding. The funniest thing?!? I don't even have a boyfriend and I've been feeling so awful about myself, it's been forever since I've been on a date! And here I am worrying about what I'll be missing out on. Well, I'll tell you what I'm missing out on now - LIFE. Life is passing me by while I am stuffing myself with chocolate cookies and paying dearly for it physically and mentally. My son doesn't get to see the real me because I am on the binge roller coaster all the time. Also, I have been caught up in all the debate about whether Atkins is healthy or not. Well - I do know that the only time in my life that I have had relief from cravings, binges, and excess weight, is when I was free of sugar and flour and eating low carb. I was exercising, dealing with stresses without turning to food, and I was enjoying life! That's enough personal scientific evidence for me!!

OK, must go and try to recover from this sugar and flour induced stomach ache. Thanks again everyone for your thoughts and encouragement. I won't be far from the forums for a while. While I am here, I think I will post my food for tomorrow. Just to get it out there.

b - 3 eggs cooked in olive oil
l - 1 can tuna with mayo, chopped olives
s - hard boiled egg? not sure - will make it protein and fat
d - 1 portion fish, small salad, small portion low-carb veggies, olive oil

Over and out for now. Be back tomorrow...