Lately I have been feeling really low about this horrible horrible condition. I keep on thinking that the only way anyone will sit up and take any notice is when someone kills themselves because they cannot live with it anymore.

I cant believe the medical proffession have known about it for 70 years and there's still no cure, it sucks!

Surely there is something that can be done in this day and age. We are seeing more cures for cancer, for Aids, people are being given sight, we can fertilise eggs in test tubes and clone animals yet PCOS is being over looked (or so it seems).

I really dont even go to see my G.P unless I have to and then I get myself all worked up about the whole visit. Its like pulling teeth to me because I know it will be a negative experience. Every Doctor I've ever met has dismissed the PCOS as a condition you have to live with (hello I know that already) and they always say lose weight. If I go to surgery with ear ache they say lose weight.

I want to be rude sometimes and say 'kiss my ass' but I dont I politely take the insults and walk away. Am I hero? No way Im trying to cope day to day being trapped inside a body that I hate and despise.

Doctors ought to start thinking about the phsycological aspects of this 'nightmare' condition. I dont look in the mirror unless I have to, I cry when the razor blade tugs on the hair on my face and I'm so so tired soemtimes (I could just take to my bed).

I regard myself as relatively intelligent yet time and time again I've been overlooked for promotion and I've let opportunity pass me by time and again. My confidence and self esteem are at an all time low at the moment. My life plans seem so unattainable.

Am I feeling sorry for myself ? I certainly am. I am angry and frustrated and yes its one of my bad days (I usually take the hair off my face and try and face the world as best I can).

I want to turn this negative experience into something positive sadly the only way I can ever see that happening is if a miracle happened and a cure is found.

TO ALL YOU CLEVER MEDICAL PEOPLE OUT THERE ...... LISTEN...... ITS TIME PCOS WAS ACKNOWLEDGED BY ALL OF YOU..... START LOOKING FOR A CURE BEFORE IT BECOMES AN EPEDEMIC!