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Originally Posted by papa deuce
Ok, I "am" fat. but I once was at this weight before and got down to 217 ( after 2 years of hard exercise and a really LF diet ) and I remember never feeling mentally like I was any thinner.
I hope that as I progress this time my mindset changes, becasue I think NOT feeling better about myself last time is what made me go back to the old ways and regain my weight.
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your stmt is just what i was trying to say in another post titled "What will you miss the most about being fat?" - which is a good read by the way - so i thought i would copy a question i answered for your opinion and expound - i think/know when you are fat for all of your life especially like i was (fat kid-fat adult) it not only affects your physical health but your mental health.
i think we all know that - we just do not realize the magnitude of the effects. low carbing has changed dieting for me - before on low fat it took forever to lose the weight on less food - now i have successfully kept the weight off (i do seem to gain and regain the same 5-10lbs. occasionally but never more than that and then it comes right back off) for almost 2 years. so i dont think i have ever reached the same point in my previous weightloss attempts.
i have never before had to convince my mind that i was no longer fat. I DO NOW!!! i know it sounds stupid - i guess another way to put it is-
I KNOW LOGICALLY/FACTUALLY THAT I HAVE LOST WEIGHT AND AM NO LONGER FAT BUT I AM STILL FAT EMOTIONALLY!?!
anyway here's my other post from the thread entitled
What will you miss most about fat?
when i was fat i had this way of deflecting the bad stuff by being a BIG bad ass - you know i could threaten to sit on whoever was pissing me off etc. - there was a certain security in the fat - guys did not hit on me at all - and even though i was 5 foot 3 and fat i felt even BIGGER - people didnt notice me - people definitely underestimated me or worse didnt even bother to consider me one way or the other. which i must admit sometimes was a plus.
after losing weight and no longer being fat - i started to get more attention from men and people in general- it was kinda disconcerting.
after having felt huge in more ways than one all of a sudden i was petite and fragile. WTF?!? fragile and petite - me - no way! who the hell knew i was petite? i sure didnt.
my safety net was gone! i was no longer intimidating just because of my size -now i was attractive to everyone - now other women considered me a threat - now people see me coming and dont automatically look the other way - now people take me seriously immediately. now if i threaten to sit on anyone if they mess with me - there really is no threat in it.
dont get me wrong i am glad i lost the weight - but it seems we are losing more than weight - we are losing something mentally as well?? does this make any sense at all??
the biggest problem i have had is not losing the weight - its putting my head around my new size - my brain is having a hard time reconciling my fat mind with my slimmer body.
i am beginning to think that the reason most people put the weight back on is due to the fact - that their brain can not accept that they are no longer fat. do you know what i mean?
i still look in the mirror and see that person that weighed well over 200 lbs. not the actual person in the mirror now.
if you are or have been fat you know what it is like for instance - you tell yourself nobody would be interested in you because you are fat and somehow you project that to the world "I AM FAT - THEREFORE I CAN NOT BE HIT ON BY MEN - AND I CAN NOT BE A THREAT TO YOUR RELATIONSHOP". and in projecting those feelings you give out a vibe that keeps that from happening as a form of protection.
sorry i am trying to explain it but it is hard to put into words. i'll keep trying