Hi Kassie:
No matter how much you read, it never will be enough with this Dx. Firstly, don't be too angry with yourself, it's not just being overweight that makes you diabetic, there is also great genetic predisposition to ir, in other words, you had to pick different parents, yet better grandparents . Just embrase it, as complicated as this disorder is, there are other scary things out there. I also want to note, that carbs are not only something to watch for, too much protein, expecially red meat, can be a problem too. Instead of grieving, start acting: test before and after each meal, and eat up to your meter. Based on what are your Bgs now (Hb1C), you can establish where you want your Bgs to be right now. Now everyone can achieve 85 around the clock, but it is good to keep you Bgs <100. Diabetes can be controlled by diet and exercise alone, so don't despare. Good luck with establishing good control.
Chin up,
Dina