When you are ready to do it, you will. I've lost and regained the same 30 lbs twice now...and this time I got to goal only to gain 10. I'm back on program now, but this happens! The question is, how are you going to stop letting your feelings of shame victimize you and do what you need to do to get back on track? No one can answer this but you. The power is there...you just have to reach out and take it.