Wed, Dec-17-03, 17:30
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Senior Member
Posts: 3,060
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Plan: Atkins
Stats: 338/253/210
BF:
Progress: 66%
Location: Broken Arrow, Oklahoma
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Quote:
Originally Posted by DWRolfe
I agree that for some people just losing weight is not enough. There are almost always issues that need to be resolved as well, which many people don't deal with. They lose weight, freak out about the same things again (like intimacy, attention from others, feeling vulnerable in a difficult and scary world) and then re-gain.
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In my case, I'm wondering if I didn't deal with those issues the past few years, resolving my belief that I wasn't worthy of certain things in life, and that nobody could ever love me. I really never had the self loathing so many people in this condition speak of, but I had an apathy about myself, only finding passion in the small things -- political arguments, career stuff, sports, etc.
I think I may have gone over three decades without any passion for life, for the important things in it. I may have gotten kick started when I survived a murder attempt, and then boosted when I met Chelli, and when we had Kyra, but it was a long time coming. It has been perhaps a misapplication of passion in my life.
I think I've resolved things internally, and at this point, it's become all about fixing the damage.
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