I think all of us, and even thin super models have fat days where we just feel fat and bloated. I made the mistake of trying on jeans yesterday. While the smaller size fit, it was a porportional thing. I still look 6-7 months prenant, even though the baby is 7 months old
I don't know if I will ever get rid of this baby gut. While I have lost inches in my waist, the numbers say so, I have lost more weight in other places I think to where the problem is even more noticeable.
We all go through this. The frustration, the loathing, looking at old pictures and wanting to burn them (a actuly did throw away some pictures of me right after I had first baby. With the bloating from compilications ane being overweight anyway, I looked like a deflated beach whale).
If the self loathing starts to become a constant and you can't even occasionaly look in the nirror and give yourself a compliment, then it can be a sign of a larger problem. Also if it starts to interfer with your daily life. You won't do some activities because you think your to fat for them, if you spend so much time trying to find an outfit that makes you look thinner you are late for things, if everyone else around you tells you that you look great and all you can do is insult yourself, ect ect. If these are problems, then you may have depression or another larger problem effecting the way you see yourself.
Speaking to a counsler or your doctor may help. If it is not a chemical imbalance or hormonal issue the doctor can help with, then the counsler may be able to help you get to the root of why you feel so bad about yourself and how to start overcoming it.
When you start to appriciate some of the things about your body and how wonderful it can be, you may start focusing on making it the healthiest as possible. You may also have more energy, stand straiter, and be more active, all of which can help aid in getting to a healthy weight.