I don't think there is anything wrong with you. I think you are human. I have a big fear that if I fall off the wagon, so to speak, I will not be able to get back on. Sometimes that fear is all that keeps me in line.

It sounds to me like you feel you have lost control over yourself. Try and take it one meal at a time. Just decide for this one meal you will keep to your plan-don't worry about any other meals. Get through that one meal and you have yourself a victory and control. I find that I cannot think in the long term when it comes to things like food-I have to take it in baby steps. I have to use mini goals and small victories to get me through most things-school, sobriety, low carbing.