I felt the same as you around the same time. I could have gone both ways (giving up or keeping on). I chose to keep on because I started to feel better physically. I also realized that I had to break the addiction/cycle of bad choices and eating foods that were "chemically enhanced" and contributed to my gaining weight. I had to really deal with why I ate. I am a recovering carboholic and emotional eater. In order to not kill myself with food, I had to deal with why I ate and start to change my behavior/attitude towards food. Fortunately, I do not cheat. I find it to be self-sabotaging. I am now in a size 8 and I feel wonderful. There is a saying that "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels". I have also found substitutes (natural ones) to help when I feel this type of urge. I also read posts of people that cheated and felt horrible. It really isn't worth it. This truly is a WOL. Be encouraged, you will look back on this as a lesson well learned.