Well...................GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Ok, so last night I was at a seder.........My family, getting lazy and old, decided we would go to the country club for our seder, who was holding one with a rabbi.......In advance I had to pick a main dish........So i did, brisket.......However I knew with no control what so ever from this pre ordered and pre picked menu, It was going to be hard.....So first course comes...Matzah Ball Soup, my favorite! I take out the matzah ball, and have a few spoonfulls, and already I felt my self slipping. Unfortunalty, it was a pretty big event, and the servers were refilling water fast, but I kept drinking as much as I could. THen came the gefilte fish (ick didnt touch), then the brisket...already feeling bad from the soup, on my plate was some very thinly sliced brisket, and im talking thin, with a little bit of brown gravy, not much, and onions and celery sauteed with it.........Also there was carrotts with honey, as the veggie. So I ate most of the brisket, and althought it was somewhat of a mystery I figured it couldnt be too bad. Then, they cleared the plates and it was time for dessert. Usually there I can order Sugar free jello, but today No =/ they plopped thus huge piece of cake in front of my face. At first I looked at it, and pushed it away, but then i decide to take a little crumb and taste it..... well the crumb turned in to almost the whole thing =( And for passover cake, it was damn good........All I kept thinking was OMFG I cant believe I just did that, I had been so good =( No cheatin at all.....Then on the way home my mom wanted me to take her to the store, and I bought some macaroons for my boyfriend cause he asked for them. I was like well it is 10 carbs per 2, so I guess since I already had the cake, I might as well, have one and just get over it until tomw......Well, when i got home and opened the container, the metal ring that you are supoosed to open was off, and inside the contianer like it was tampered with.........SO I knew not to eat it...I was like omg, god must be saving me from myself!!!!! I thought that was soooo weird...........Anyway I got on the scale this morning and it read like 2lbs less that yesterday..Its fuunny in different spots in my bathroom it reads different readings, and its all hard floor.......But anyway, I hope I didn't do too much damage, and I am going for the second seder in a few mins........I hope I can control myself today =(

Well I just figured I would share and say how horrible passover seders are!!!1 hehe...........I hope this is the last time I have to admit my guilt of cheating........I am driving to NY next week, and being away will be quite a challenge =( Wish me luck!

Happy Passover, and Easter of course!!!!!!!