I feel so fed up at myself, I went all to the trouble of applying to start a Uni photography course, which was my life ambition, started it, and had name calling by youths in the college, being treated with indifference by younger members of the group, and when I got to physically using the equipment I went all into body sweats stepping on and off chairs, the college was so hot also, I just feel so awful about my weight I left yesterday. I think this is a painful reminder of my childhood, being bullied in school for being overweight, and its clouded the rest of my life. I went with every intention of being strong and getting through it, but I am just not that strong. Makes me sad how people's mean comments has spoilt my life.