Hi everyone. This is my first time in this area of the support forum. I really need it right now. This past Thursday and Friday were really bad days for me. A few weeks ago a very close friend of mine passed from Leukemia and I finally just started dealing with it Thursday evening when I got to have a long talk with his brother about everything. (I stuff things so I don't have to deal with them) I got off of the phone with him and called my boyfriend of 5 1/2 years for some support. We ended up getting in a huge fight and are possibly going to break up over some things going on in our relationship. Friday I was maintaining at work and figured I was home free. Around 4:20, my best friend there who has an office next to me got layed off. This is the last one in a string of layoffs for the past 2 months and we're not a big company. I just lost it. My boss had to send me home early. I felt really stupid because I seemed to take it worse than her! I was in a major funk all Friday night and saturday morning. All I could do was cry. I miss my friend who passed, I'm going to miss my friend at work. We had so much fun every day. It's going to be so depressing at work now. I don't know if I'm going to be in my relationship anymore. I can't pin him down to talk and see what we are going to do. You know men and talking!!!
The good news is, I forced myself Sat. afternoon to get off my duff and work out. I felt so much better. I felt empowered; like I had some control over my life. I actually felt thinner and could really envision myself getting "lean and mean". I'm still down about everything but I have some hope. Thanks for listening.