I am putting myself out there, asking for all of your support, help/willingness to be straight and if needs be- harsh with me!
I keep self sabotaging.... I tell myself I don't have time... that my kids need me and working out right then would be selfish... that I am too tired... that the new puppy will be traumatised for life if I leave him alone for the amount of time it takes to work out.
I KNOW what I need to do.. i need to set my priorities (HEALTH) and stick to them... I think I have very serious issues that every time I get one step closer to feeling better about myself, I stop working out, and go to MacDonalds... I have been cheating a whole lot more than I have been letting on to you guys or even myself... but it is making me seriously depressed and we are talking even ON TOP of the elephants dose of Prozac i am on.
Why can't I be good to myself? I know how good exercise and TRUE low carbing makes me feel... I know it all but wipes out the anxiety and depression I am so blessed (LOL!) with... I wish we were all in a true real life community.... any thoughts would be so so welcomed.
Doods.
Oh, and I think the best thing would be to start over, yet again, BFL on Monday. What do you all think?
Thanks again. Doods.