I just finished watching an informerical for Richard Simmons products.

I could not believe these people he had on tv. One woman weighed 513 and she lost so much weight and only weighs 165 now!!! Another woman lost over 250 lbs. And so on and so on.
I thought these people would give me the inspiration to jump back on the wagon of LC - instead, it made me feel worse about my inability to LC.

I can't even get myself back together on the program of WOE/WOL. I fell off last week and I am treading my way back, but I just can not get on it!!!!!

Why don't I have the dedication, drive and strength like these people???? Why can't I suceed like these and the rest of the people here?? Why are they able to do it???

I was doing well, almost 50 lbs. Almost, and then I tried on clothes and nothing was loose and there was no visable weight lost on my body. Why???? WHY????

AM I such a loser (not in the sense of weight loss) that I can not stay on this??

Each morning, I wake up and say, okay today I will be LC good.
BY noon, I am LC off the wagon! Why?

I hate being angry at myself. I hate being fat, I hate being so overweight. I hate........ I hate.............. . I am so darn frustrated at myself and my lack of ability to do this.

Sorry to vent , rant and rave but I am so angry with my inability and lack of success and lack of commitment.

Thanks for reading.