I love loosing weight. Truely I do. I do have aproblem with it though. You see, as I lose weight my clothes are fitting really nice. Whats under my clothes is a freightning sight. Let me give you some history. I had my babys back to back. I mean really back to back. They are 11 months and a day apart. I weighed about 140-145 before i had my first. ballooned to 180-185. Lost some of the weight dont really remember how much. Got preganant with my second and went up to 200. I lost all my weight and then some over the next year or so. I went down to 137 and loved it. ( sshhh by the way it was with weight watchers)
Last Feb. i went out of work because of foot surgery. I had become very stagnant and ate alot out of bordom. Thats how I ended up here and at 155-158. I am having problems this time around. Not with losing weight but with my body image. I don't know weither I liked my self better at 155 than I do now. I'll tell you why. I have alot of stretch marks. some measuring a half an inch across and almost two inches long. these are on my hips through my wasit. I also have them on my upper thighs and my
rear. I tend to lose weight first in my stomach. And, the excess skin I have below my belly button is awful. The top of my belly button sags and it dosnt even lok like one. Not to mention my breasts. From breast feeding for almost two years all I can say where are they. I keep thinking when I was heavier I didnt see all these imperfections. I wanted to know if anyone else feels the way that I do. This is a very painful thing for me. I have been crying through this whole confession.