Weird...I have done sooooooooooo awesome on Atkins so far up until yesterday mentally...Id say my struggle felt really "wierd"...Every Sunday I visit my parents house and do stuff with the family for the day. Well yesterday I drove the 45 mins to the house and the moment I pulled into the driveway I started craving.....craving cigarettes, craving junk food, craving everything....I ended up doing ok all day with my family. Just as background my mother is bipolar and my father anxiety/depression with anger management problems. There was a lot of trauma growing up in that scene, however I thought I was at peace with my family for the most part....I guess all this time, I thought it was me....I was the one that was dysfunctional, I was the one that made everyone fight and go crazy on every holiday and that its my fault I have never been able to keep a relationship longer than 3 months...ever..Well you know what.....I dont think its all me anymore...I am fine all week until emotionally I have to deal with the stress and dysfunctionality of my family.


I did stop at the grocery store on the way home and bought some sugar free candy which I kept within serving size portion (actually smaller). I was getting scared I would totally cheat and eat a Reese's PB Cup King size or something....any insight? anyone have simlar experience?? Anyone have any ideas to cope with this ? I love my family, I dont want to cut them off....they need me on some level and I do love them....