Let's see.....I began gaining weight (I think) when I was about 10. I remember my mom sending me out to the bus stop in this really tight red shirt that I hated because it showed all my bumps and lumps. I will never forget that day for as long as I live. And that began my 20 years of being overweight.
I continued to gain weight and as a senior in high school I was unable to fit into all the "cool" clothes like all my friends. I was always in Macy's clothes, you know, the old lady clothes even all through High School! When me and my girlfriends would go to the mall, we would try on all the cool clothes. I would grab some, go in the dressing room and "pretend" to try them on. I knew none of them would ever fit me, but I didn't want even my best friend to know I couldn't fit into these clothes. How sad as I look back on it today.
After my son was born I think I was close to 270 pounds. I couldn't believe that this was my body! How could this happen? This can't be my body. I would walk past a mirror at the mall or someplace and think..."no way, the mirror must be distorted!"
I'm tired of being the heaviest person in a room. I no longer want to feel as though my fat is always the center of attention. I am sick of thinking other people (after I leave the room) are saying "that poor girl, she has such a pretty face. Why doesn't she do anything about her weight."
All during the times of my seperation, divorce and then my father's cancer, I was forever on a diet. Diet Center, Weight Watchers, TOPS, you name it...I tried it! I did well for the first few days and then something inside me would say...nope, you're staying heavy because you're not worthy. Well, thank God times change!
Now I have a wonderful 15 year old son, a new husband of two months and two great step daughters! I've begun living my new life and began Atkins almost two weeks ago. This is my time to help myself. Everyone else is all set, now it's all me!
I feel totally engergized. I'm never hungry and haven't really "craved" a thing! It's awesome. I even went through Christmas and New Years without any problems. I can do this as so many other people have also done it.
I would appreciate any help/advice that anybody has to help me through this. I would love to also help motivate anyone who may need it.
It's been 20 years since I lugged around these rolls and it's time they came off!!! It's my time.
I will post my "after" picture...at the 50 pound mark!
-wings