Hello S'chick! Glad to have you here.
Sorry to hear you are having such a hard time with the cravings and bingeing. I can tell you from experience that eating lo carb is the ONLY way to overcome the cravings.
And with this way of eating/life (WOE/WOL) comes big changes that are to last your lifetime. It's not just a weight loss program, it's a life changing program. It's all about what your motivation is and what you do to put that motivation to work.
I was a serious carb addict. I was a chocolatier for many years, creating and making candies, specialty cakes, and chocolate confections, with a major investment in equipment, a large stock of the world's finest dark chocolates, and literally thousands of dollars worth of stuff in my kitchen devoted to CARBS!
Sugar was purchased in giant bags, girlfriend!
The only way I was able to break free of hi-carbing it was to GET RID OF IT ALL! That's right, I got rid of all my kitchen equipment that was strictly devoted to working with chocolate and pastries, and cakes to some extent (I can still use the pans, so I kept them).
I gave many bags of "carbage" as Rosebud called it, to neighbors, including many bags of nothing but different chocolate that cost us a fortune to a friend who was not concerned about his carb intake.
I gave up a lot to begin this. I did this all on the first day we started and have not looked back. I rid the house of all offending carbs. Needless to say, the pantry was nearly empty, and the fridge was so white and bright inside from the shleves being empty, I thought for sure we had just bought a new fridge!
Fo me, the only way was going ALL THE WAY the day I started, not leaving a way out, a way to cheat, an excuse to fail.
I'm an adult, and I figured I needed to grow up and take responsibility for my eating habits. Therefore, drastic measures were needed. And this is the first time in my life that I have made a complete and lasting change in not only my eating habits, but in my entire lifestyle!
We ahve become more activity focused, not watching TV anymore, but doing things outside now. Food is no longer a focus, I don't think about eating anymore the way I used to. I used to be thinking about what my next meal would be while I was eating another meal! Not anymore. My mind is completely changed.
It's the carbs. Not eating too many carbs has now cleared my mind and changed the way my hormones are working in my brain and body. I can see the big picture now. I think you will, too, if you make a decision and take every step you possibly can to make it happen.
Otherwise, you will leave yourself an "out," a way of excusing yourself when you can get thru the craving times.
I have certain times when I desire a certain something, and I plan a time when I will have that special treat. I know what to expect of my body, the carb hangover I will get the next day, etc. After 6 months on this, I know exactly what I need to stay away from, and I get it more fine tuned each month that passes!
It's all a lifestyle change, and you, too, will fine tune it as you go.
I prayed for you and I really hope that you will focus on the HEALING, not the weight loss. I stalled for like 2 months, but stuck with it. Even my measurments didn't budge for 3 months! ARG! But, now, the changes and weight loss are happening again, as my body is healing at its own pace. Give it time and your constant attention. You will succeed, if you let yourself.
Take care, looking forward to seeing you around.