Wow... A whole section devoted to the calorically ambushed such as myself. lol! I call it an ambush because I swear to you, I don't remember the greater part of my life as a 200 pounder. It was almost like one day I got up and ...

<center> BAM!!! </center>

I was a big girl. I think my self esteem may have been my worst enemy. I'm not (or at least I wasn't) like alot of other heavy people. I never felt <i>fat.</i>

I dated... I had great sex lol! It just never occured to me that I was getting bigger and bigger. Well now that I'm 300lbs, it's a little hard to deny.

I can't dress they way I'd like to, or do the things I want to. I've become EXTREMELY self conscious about showing my body to anyone ...

So... here I am.

I'm shootin for 130, but let me tell you, if I get up and that scale says 299 tomorrow I'll be happy as hell!!! LOL!!!

Male or female, it's all the same...BIG is BIG...

We're so happy that you've found us and that you've chosen to jump in by posting!

We share so much good information, insight and experiences here, that you're sure to find the added support you need to help make your LC journey a success.

I hope that you will feel free to start new posts or to jump in on some of the oldies but goodies. It's all good here.

Good luck to you and good health as you LCarb!

Donald

WTG girl for admitting it to yourself !!!!

I too felt shock, horror and oh my god I cant show myself naked to anyone. I'm still like that - but I am trying to love myself a little bit each day.

I used to be a hairdresser ( am now a civil servant for the british government ) and I was always on my feet - rushing around and a trim size 12 (UK). I had fun with the girls and went out dancing twice a week and then I met a man ( its all his fault ).

We started dating ( god I'm 37 and it sounds too young for me ) and did'nt go out much - liked each others company better. Then I started going over to his house and staying (45 miles). He'd cook - I'd eat and so the story goes. I then moved in 8 months later and gave up the hairdressing for an office job ( put my hard earned degree to use ). Since then (2years) I've been sat on a chair for most of the time and have grown to a wobbly size 20 (UK).

I have started Atkins for one reason - I loathed myself - my relationship was going down the toilet ( he was ok - I was'nt). I used to go to bed early so I'd be asleep before he came up - I wore more to bed than during the day - I never turned the light on -- Does this ring a bell?

I have lost 13lb so far in 16 days and it might not be enough to notice - but its enough to give me a tiny bit of confidence back and I love that.

Just take one day at a time and read everything you've got time for in these postings - these people are lovely and supportive and will always be there for you - this I know after 16 days only

Take care and pop back soon

Boy I can sure identify with not letting anyone see the body. The girls at work were teasing me about "getting lucky". I told them even if I ever get lucky again it's going to be lights out!!!

Hello Again

I just thought I'd pop by to see how your doing and I find no darkklove has been back since the first posting.

This and other forums have been my back bone since I started LCing 17 days ago. I love to come online and look for any messages of support.

If its not working or you've had a bad day - dont worry - just come on and talk (type) - it really does help - take it for one who knows and who is eternally grateful that these forums were ever invented.

If you read this please come back to us - we miss you

Take care and Bye for now

Um...

Okay....

I guess along with my low cal, high carb WOE I need to get rid of all my little guilt and shame issues that seem to creep up on me as soon as I have one little slip.

Well...

Actually...

It wasn't really a little slip...

I'll only say two words: BANANA MARGURITAS

Anyway, I ended up falling right back into my old behaviors.

1. Have a minor slip
2. Take that as my cue to binge
3. Feel guilty about binging
4. Starve as punishment
5. Binge out of frustration
6. Feel guilty about binging
7. Starve as punishment
8. Binge out of frustration
9. Feel guilty about binging
10. Starve as punishment
((((you see the where I'm going with this, right?))))

Well, today I finally got around to checking my email for the first time since I don't know when, and I find this...

Quote:

Originally posted by Tigra1965 Hello Again I just thought I'd pop by to see how your doing and I find no darkklove has been back since the first posting. If you read this please come back to us - we miss you

THANKYOU SOOOO MUCH!!!

You have no idea how much I needed to read that. So, I'm back and back on track (as of this very moment). You know, I'm not even sure why I avoided the boards since this is like the LAST place any body would sit in judgement of me.

Sometimes I'm just so silly!

Thanks again!


P.S. Julie, am I reading right??? 13 lbs in 17 days??? Dang!!! You are really doin' ya thing, girl !!! LOL!!! Oooh watch out now! I'm scared'a you!!