I am so pleased! Really I am!! I made it to the 30 lbs mark!
My family and others have suffered with me for years, ie. Oh, NO! Melissa is doing yet another diet! sort of thing.
I started this not beleiving it would work, but knowing I had to give it a go as I was just killing myself either way.
I really do have tears in my eyes today.
Fortunately they are tears of JOY.
I finally see a teeny tiny splinter ray of hope shining through this long and dark tunnel. I have felt all the things that I know alot of you have felt and understand. Self loathing, disgust, depression, helplessness, not being normal, low self-esteem, remorse, dissatisfaction, hunger, etc etc etc. The list can go on and on and on.
Also, being so isolated here in Luxembourg made the conditions ripe for much more self-inflicted "medication with food"
I just wanted to take this time to thank "you" in the forum that surrouned me with hope and poured out your advice with understanding and real concern.
Just maybe I can do this, maybe this time I can win! I sure hope so, but either way this amount really helps my health and I am truly joyful.
Thank you
Melissa