That’s sad to hear Saliena.
I would feel ill during periods of weight loss too. There were bowel things, headaches, nausea… Think of what your body is going through. It has to learn how to adapt to the new way of eating. All kinds of things are in the process of changing. Are you taking any vitamin supplements?A
Just a few parting words, based on my own experience…
You keep on questioning yourself, wondering why you’re such a failure, wondering if you’re doing the right thing.. Why can’t you do anything good for yourself, why you’re such a fat, useless pig. There is a doughnut around every corner, just waiting for you to eat it. You don’t know if you can give up the weight you’ve been carrying for so long because it has become your friend Always there, always reliable, and it never lets you down. You wake up with it in the morning, and go to bed with it at night.
The cravings are unbearable. You indulge, wondering all the while, why? Why do I do this to myself? You hate yourself for being weak.
All of this is NORMAL!
How do you live through it? This is the perfect opportunity to find “the spirit within”. Take a deep breath, relax, and let the best part of yourself speak. I would say this to myself constantly when I first started. Am I making this decision from the best part of myself, or the worst part? After letting the best part make decisions on a consistent basis, and of course letting my worst self have a bit of fun too, it started to get easier and easier to only listen to the best part.
No, it was not all easy. It was difficult and painful! Physically, mentally and spiritually
Some days I felt possessed by Satan. Especially when I had days when I was out of control. Such are the woes of an addict. For me, it was do or die. I didn’t want to live as an addict any longer. Alcoholics live one day at a time. We’re different! We have to live one choice at a time, because we have to eat.
I went on a six-month binge because I was afraid of letting go of my fat. I came back to low-carb and ate the wrong things to keep my fat with me. I finally made a decision to let it go once and for all. Everyday I work towards being free of all the things that keep me fat. This has been a two-year journey so far, and I will continue on the journey for the rest of my life.
Anyway, if this ranting has been at all helpful, consider it for yourself. I could be way off base. There could be other reasons why it’s not for you.
The human spirit is a remarkable thing. Mountains can be moved with it…
Karen
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