Oh well..here I am again! After 2 months of absolute loss of control.
The reason I'm posting here, besides my need to cry out to someone who understands, is to warn others. Don't be fooled! It takes a while to adjust to this new way of life, but no time at all to adjust to the old way!
I was content with my body over the summer. Though I hadn't reached my goal weight, at least in clothes, I was looking better. I really believed that I had it
all figured out . That there was no way I would ever return to the old way of eating. NO way. I was
in control
I think it began around Halloween (After almost 9 faithful months!). We had a bowl of candy left over on a table by the door and every time I would pass it I would take one Tootsie Roll. I should've seen the red flags when after a couple of days I started to dig in the bowl to see if there was any left.
I started reading carb counts to how many I might be able to get away with instead of keeping at healthy amount.
Then came the holidays. By now my defenses were down. Loving friends and family brought over 100's of varieties of fudge, cookies and pies. That was "all she wrote". Here I am, almost 10 pounds regained, crawling back to this web site of wonderful people.
Be careful if you think that you can eat extra on weekends or vacations. Be very careful on CAD. For people like me, an addict by nature, that way of thinking is very dangerous. And getting back on the wagon a real struggle.
Pray for me as I cleanse my body of these cravings...once more!