Moondanzr I am a lot younger, but we're all women and we all have our "stuff" in the closet that we're somewhat uncomfortable with. Eating+emotional patterns, destructive behaviour etc. I'm glad you started this thread as a safe place to just be open - to talk about what we need to, and to listen without negative judgement. We can all learn from each other.
My husband is German, and his nickname for me is Maus. He says I am like a cute maus.. which is funny because I am definitely not small (5 10"), and do not have a ...well mousy character in the sense that could be imagined at first. Anyway....Heheh I came home last night from school after 11pm and Andy was in bed, like he said he would be. And there was a yellow sticky on the fridge door handle that said "Hi Sexy.... you are not on your way into the fridge are you???
and then there was a picture of a really fat Maus underneath it" It made my night! Of course I was on my way into the fridge to sneak a small bite of something. I always want to eat when I get home from school.
When I was younger (before finding low carb, getting married, and growing up and healing emotionally - ha! in that order) I actually WANTED to be anorexic. I thought that it would be great to be so skinny and actually have to gain weight, and that it wouldn't be an issue if I could at least lose it. But I was too much of a binger, there was no way I could restrict myself from eating. I would have done the purge thing but I don't throw up easily, and it would have taken a lot of effort and pain to actually make myself puke for that first time (I tried enough times).
My husband is pretty skinny. Well, from a climber's standpoint he's fat - because climbers need to see many striations before someone is acceptable, but to a normal American person he's pretty thin. He was not supportive of low carb when I first started dabbling in it, but saw the results and my passion for finding real information - not just believing exactly what a certain book told me, and I won him over. He now trusts that what information I have is pretty accurate and generally comes to me with questions, knowing I can find the answer if I don't have it. Not that he really DOES anything with his diet except tell me he wants meat for dinner lol.
This is getting long.
1) I'm grateful for the little fat Maus picture on the fridge
2) I'm grateful to have gotten wonderful WONDERFUL bodywork at school last night from Frank
3) I'm grateful to be down 7 lbs since Sunday - water yes, but it still makes a size difference and it's fun.
buddy or buddies needed to beat the holiday blues
Yippee!
it up. Just kidding, really. I wanted to use that icon so bad. 
Anyways today was a good day for me. I didn't live to eat, I ate to live. 
I posted something on diet caffeine free cokes and got a few replies of people doing it and still losing, so that's my bad habit. I'm still getting my water in though. 
Do u guys use fitday?, It really helps me if I have to type in what I ate b4 I eat it and see the carbs for the day 
. The three things I'm grateful for are you 2 ladies to 
my head with plenty of lc advice, and cheering me on when I do great 
, deciding to give Atkins another try, and sausage and eggs, No really they totally fill you up even though I've been eating them for a whole week. 
. Now, that is heavy binging! I think I was trying to commit suicide via junk food 
but lost my fiancee when I became disabled with fibromyalgia and lost my job as a well paying nurse to collecting SSDI at about 1/4 of my usual income 
until I take in 64 oz...that amount is all I strive for..if I drink more than great but I am a soda and a coffee fiend but have managed to keep the coffee in the AM and half caff now. And I do use fitday faithfully to compute carbs and calories as if I take in too many cals...I won't lose.
I'm glad you feel somewhat better moondanzr. NOW, LET'S GET TO THE BITCHING, My car broke down. In fact, it broke down 4 mths ago, after I only had it for 5 mths the piece of shit. I have to ride home with someone who's doing a tremendous favor, she takes the kids to daycare for me on the way to work, we work in the same area but she doesn't always say what she means like she may be tired of picking me up, mind u her man and mine work there also, so she has to come to pick him up anyway. We get off at 3:30pm and she gets off at 4 or she did when my car worked, now as in today she came to pick me up at after 6. You could say I was pissed but hey what am i going to do WALK. It's late now and I can't talk long tell u later but I can feel where you're coming from on the friend and her friends. 
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