Fri, May-16-03, 21:36
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New Member
Posts: 11
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Plan: SPII
Stats: 240/???/170
BF:???
Progress:
Location: Calgary, Alberta
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Koko, thanks for taking so much time to answer me. I am insulin resistant (but only partially now, was serious before), with severely damaged adrenal glands.
I used to body build and do more cardio then I like to think about. I ran two hours a day on 800 calories, trying not to gain weight, and I still did. I did every competition diet and training regimen you can possibly imagine, to try to lose this weight or even stop it from happening. I have no idea fo why it suddenly started, aside of quitting smoking.
I just stopped going to the gym again after trying for a couple of weeks. I was getting too exhausted, and I could tell my body was not ready yet. I had started losing weight exceptionally slowly awhile after I stopped the gym. I felt better and thought since I was again losing, I could kick start it by training again. When I started again, my weight rebounded and I gained even more then I lost. This was with no changes in diet, just going to the gym made it worse.
I take very long hikes with my dogs every day to the river. I walk at a good clip and walk for at least an hour a day with them. My body tolerates this well. I also work in the construction industry and install ceramic tiles. It is labor intenisive manual work. I can't work at the same pace I used to, but I keep improving slowly. I do get burn out periods during the day and I try to eat something when I feel like that even if I am not hungry.
Rosa what a good description you made. I do agree with what you said, but I just mourn the loss of my body. I have a trophy husband and woman shamelessly come on to him all the time. He is the best man in the world, and understands I have a health problem. He always said something was no right since I was gaining when I should not have been. I just used to work so hard to be sexy and beautiful and now I am just big and fat. I know I should not talk like this about myself, but my looks and weight are my biggest stresses in life. Everything else is great aside of my big old butt.
I guess I am having one of those bad days we all seem to have. I do not second guess what I am doing, but I amk so scared that this won't work and I will be fat forever.
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