Don't be too hard on yourself. Maybe you should start a journal so you can track your slip-ups.

I thought I was self sabotaging until I noticed that every month right before TOM visits, I "blow it". Well, I also noticed that my weight did not increase with these episodes.

There is probably a real reason for your 'slip up'.
There is a thread on the topic of self sabotage, read it, it might help you.

Have a great LC day.

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