Hi Liz, Fiona, Celtinore and all...

I've spent the last few hours (!) on and off trying to answer the AntiM question. This is the quick answer:

I don't have children, so I was tremendously happy to become an aunt a few years ago. My first name is Monika and my brother has taken to sometimes calling me 'Auntie M' (ala Wizard of Oz).

Why I chose that spelling is part of my on-going battle with depression. Sometimes the part of me who wants to disappear seems in charge - I call her the Anti M. Just a little dark humor, but...

Your quesions brought up so many feelings / issues ... I think I'm going to start that suggested journal.

As far as the 'where will I belong' posts, I know what you mean. Since age 3, I've never been less than obese for my height. What if I were merely 'fat' instead of 'super-sized'? What if I made it to that just 'overweight' zone?

These are the questions I'm just beginning to ask myself as I am starting to believe this WOE might work.

XOXO AntiM