Sat, Apr-05-03, 20:54
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Senior Member
Posts: 651
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Plan: Atkins/BFL
Stats: 325/287/150
BF:
Progress: 22%
Location: Lawrenceburg, KY
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<I>Fee wrote:</I> I caught myself the other day wondering though where I will fit in once I lose weight, afterall I've always been the big one, the fat one, I've also been defensive about it, used it as a shield to keep some people away, as an excuse not to get involved in some things - what am I going to do when I lose this weight, who will I be then .... I don't know who I will be or what space I will occupy
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This has been on my mind a great deal lately. I have always been heavy, except for a brief period in high school when I literally starved myself thin. So much of who I am, and how I feel about things, has been filtered through the layers and layers of fat, and how people reacted to my fat. Fee has voiced the exact same fears I've been whispering to myself, in the quiet dark after going to bed ... how is this going to change me?
I'm terrified, and excited, to find out.  |