I'm curious -- why do you call yourself AntiM? I think of the character on the Wizard of Oz when I say it to myself, but that's not how you spell it. Every time I see on of your posts I find myself wondering what you are against -- why the anti?

You should start a journal. That way we could ask you these types of questions outside of the main forum. Also, for me, my journal is a wonderful way to track my progress. Everytime I get discouraged I go back and look at where I was a few months before. I post my weight in my journal regularly and it really does help me to track how far I have come.