WOW.....what absolutely insightful and honest posts here. I literally had tears in my eyes reading these. I too wish I could be accepting of my body, but that has not happened yet. I don't wear wonderful clothes. I wear what fits. I don't buy new outfits. I keep waiting to "lose" weight. Even things like new make-up, hairstyles etc. fall by the wayside, waiting for the day when I'm thinner. I was feeling really down when I realized all this, but then I thought....HEY I'm on the road to loving myself. I have already made the committment to a new WOE and regular exercise. The rest I'm sure will follow. Good luck to everyone here on your journey and with continued support of each other, I'm sure we'll all make it to where we'd like to be and to have unconditional love and acceptance of our bodies.