I'm so totally off track. I forced myself on the scale this morning, forced myself to change my profile before I wrote my post. I up a full 7+ pounds, just from loving and binging on carbs.

I'm so not ready to do this again, but I have to follow the plan blindly, nothing else. Motivation isn't even an option today, or tomorrow...but it will be in a few more days, that I know. Just follow the plan, it's imprinted in my brain.

I eat when I'm happy and I'm so very happy right now...what more can I say. Happy and out of control in all areas of my life. So now it's time to get my control back, eat my Atkins diet, clean the house, and do what I need to do.

I also changed my goal weight from 125 up to 135. I had gotten down to 139 about a month ago, and I was feeling really really fine (I don't feel terrible now, just puffy), and I need to feel some success in my life. I think reaching 135 and allowing my body to adjust would be very healthy for me.

Okay, just coming clean with myself, no more junk food.