Carol,
You are right though, about looking inward and solving your problems there. People can lose all the weight in the world, but it will not stay off until they face all of the "inner stuff" that got them there in the first place!

I good book that I have been reading off and on (how stupid - I should just FINISH it and start using what I have learned!!!) about looking into WHY we started to gain weight in the first place and what happens to us to make us turn to food at that moment. It really helps to write it down - like what you did or in a daily diary (not necessarily a food journal, but feelings and thoughts).

Obviously I was eating lunch here at work and snorting about passing the milk through my nose! What is worse is passing soda through your nose!