i am grateful for everything. but none the less i do feel perhapes ur right i should go talk to a therpist at this point because my weight has always been a issue either im too small or too big although i have never been over 300 pounds before until 20 now i'm 25 and it just like highschool to me again im just in a werid place right now. thanks again guys for understanding it helps. by the way i got away with very little loose skin. i run 6 days a week and i lift weight three times a week i think between that and gentics i came out luck people can even tell i was every overweight. im actully starting school to become a personal trainer this spring i love working out that much but it seem like something is missing and i can't figure what it is or where the unhappiness is come from. im getting married also sept 24 2011 maybe that it?? greiving over lost time of been fat??? mad at myself because i got fat? hate the cards i was delt? umm i don't know............