I have been doing alot of self reflection because I am writing a book about my journey. Part of that was writing my "story" and pulling out memories that stand out in my mind. It is amazing when you analyse your past how everything begins to make sense. I can remember the exact instance where I equated food with love and comfort. I can remember learning to reward myself with food. I remember the moment where I stopped being athletic for fear of humiliation. But it was not until I started being really honest with myself and writing my story that I saw those experiences for what they were.
That being said I feel that the past is the past. Once you know how you got here, there is no need to replay it over and over again. We have to look towards the future and what we want for ourselves. This is my issue with alot of counselling. It focusses alot on the why and how of the past instead of on the why and how of the future.