I've been patiently waiting for the holidays to get over so I can have a little less stressful intro to induction... the time has come!
I have been on the Atkins plan twice now- once in the early 80's when I only had 20 pounds to loose. At that time, I lost it all in 6 weeks & kept it off until I got pregnant several years later. I went on again about 3 years ago & lost 25 pounds, but somehow I got off track & let things go
I was not even near goal, but I began feeling so much better that I just enjoyed life & let the plan go
After doing a search last night (past midnight!) I found this site & thought I might find the support I need to stay on the program & in time, help others to do the same. I am 44 years old & cannot bare to think I'll never feel *good* about myself again. And I just don't feel good this way
Presently I'm on an antideppresent drug called "Wellbutrin" & though I have been told this has been used in past years AS a weight loss drug- I believe it has helped me to GAIN 20 more pounds. I held the same weight (though 75 pounds too much) for about 3.5 years & since this drug- I have gained 20.
Since getting married in early 85, I have lost all of my extended family (but for 3 sibs who are all quite disfuntional & we don't have much contact). With each loss I fell into a deep depression that I tried very hard to battle on my own (I have a very loving husband, but this was a battle ALL of my own) I had a daughter in 76 (no REAL weight issues), a son in 85, daughter in 87 & a son in 94. With my baby's, came WEIGHT. I was doing better emotionally but my weight wasn't doing well. With my 4th pregnancy I had gestational diabetes & was actually 20 pounds LESS as I delivered! I felt like a million bucks- even after an emergency c-section. I took a 4 mile walk the day he was 2 weeks old!
During my sons first year, he was quite ill. It was over a year before he was diagnosed with a heart condition & he had open heart surgery to repair the defect. The weight came on! It was a very trying time for all of us (at that time, I was trying the Phen fen drug) LONG story, but I unexpectadly became pregnant again about 9 mos after our sons surgery. In 97 I delivered our son (another section) & he too was born with a heart defect
This was a much worse defect than his brothers... our baby boy passed away just 15 hours after he came into the world
Since this time a LOT has happened. I was unsure I could continue on- I truly was unsure. I was extreemely depressed & if anything- I TRIED to make myself unhealthy! I just did not care. I ate! I ate WHAT I wanted WHEN I wanted. The weight came on. (I eat when I'm sad & I eat when I'm depressed)
Things did get better & in 2001 we were absolutely BLESSED with the adoption of our last child. I was tremendously blessed to actually be present at her birth & helped to cut her cord! (She is now 20 months old) I have learned to smile again, but the weight is bringing me down TERRIBLY
It is helping to hold me in a depressed state
Living in an area of the world where we have much less light this time of year doesn't help LOL) I am having a hard time breathing while walking (anywhere), I am just so uncomfortable.
My goal is to loose much of this weight by summer. I don't expect to ever wear a bikini (LOL) but I want desperatly to feel better physicly & emotionally. I just need to STAY MOTIVATED!
Anyhow, if you have made it this far... GOD BLESS YOU! Hopw to get to know you all better.
hugs, sk ^i^